suddenly i miss him alot.WHY WHY? Why always i reali lose u then i started to regert!Why i dun treasure&cherish the thing i have wait till i lose you then i noe.wat happened? LOVe u yet impossible to be 2gether! haiis! sometime i have been thinkin have u ever love my deep in yrs heat or are u juz flirting wif me only! Like wat other always tell mi u love mi but did u realli love me deeply in yrs heart? i'm hopin sometime would happen. But would it happen again? Although i'm sayin it now over here i dunno whether he noe tat but i'm juz sayin only nothing elso also. Juz hope everythin would go normal. Maybe u hav GF now but u didnt tell mi niia. i'm sayin here doent mean i wann u to patch with me or wat. Cause even if u ask mi back i shall consider hard again cause i scared to hurt u again.! Love are blind am i rite? Am i blind lovin u? have u ever regret being wif me? i wann honest and truth pls?


1) How old will you turn in 2010 ?
-18 year old:)
2) Would you rather love one person or have many short relationships?
-Love someone. But at the same time is hard.

3) Would you date someone 8 years older than you?
-think nope

4) When was the last time you laughed?
-yesterdays

5) What were you doing at 4am this morning?
-slpin

6) Whats your relationship with the person you last texted?
- Dunno

7) What did you do today?
-Eat, watchin DVD and com

8) Who do you really want to see right now?
-I dunno

9) Will your next kiss be a mistake?

- i dunno
10) Who's your last missed call?
-i dunno tat person

11) What's something you really want right now? Honest!
- dunnoo

12) What was your first thought when you woke up this morning?
-thinkin of ..............

13) Would you go back in time if you had the chance?
-YES. MAybe

14) What is something you need to go shopping for ?
-Buy the things i wann

15) Do you want kids?
-yes. they are cute.

16) Are you in love with anyone?
- i dunno

17) Hows your heart lately?
-sick and tired:(

18) When was the last time you slept on the floor?
-past few days i think

19) Is your phone close to you?
-yes. of course

20) What is bothering you right now?
-LOVE

21) What does your last received text message says?
-good night and many more..............

22) Where are you right now?
-in the living room

23) Are you listening to music right now?
-nope

24) Do you like country music?
-not sure

25) Do you wet the toothbrush before the toothpaste?
-yes

26) How is your hair styled right now?
-bun up

27) Do you like your first name?
-yes

28) Last thing you drank?
-plain water

29) Do you sing obnoxiously in the car?
-nope. seldom

30) What did you do 15 minutes ago?
-using the com, talkin to mum

31) Do you think you are a good person?
-think so

32) The first contact in your hp?
-my sweet home

33) The sweetest person in your life?
-My family

34) The closest male to you now?
-yu mimg

35) The person you're chatting with now?
-My mummy

36) The languages you are able to speak?
-english,chinese and hokkien

37) The last person whom you screwed?
- i dunno

38) One word about your life now
-HAppy

39) Where do you wish to work?
-dunno

40) What are you specially good at?
-i dunno

41) Would you date someone younger then you?
- huh? how young?

42) Who are you to yourself?
-i dunno.

43) Do you forgive people easily?
-yes. but difficlut to 4get

44) Which girl is precious to you now?
-my sister

45) Your dressing style?
-i dunno

46) How different are you from other girls?
-IDK. each one have diff look.

47) The bad point in yourself?
-can say quit alot la

48) The last contact in your hp?
-i dunno

49) Your favourite song?
-chinese song

50) The two hated contacts in your hp?
-huh?

51) Learn one language in 10 days?
-huh?

52) One gorgeous girl you came across?
-my da jie

53) Whose your biggest enemy?
-iDK

54) Which gang do you support?
-huh?

55) What do you think about gangters ?
-u mean?

56) Proper age to join gang?
-huh?

57) Do you have a blogspot?
-yes. i;m usin now!

58) Do you like people who smoke?
-hai hao la. Cause i dun like the smell is smelly.

59) What do you think about modeling?
-is fun and style.

60) Given a chance, would you like to be a model?
-erm. If can la.

61) Whose approval do you usually seek first?
-parent and sister

62) What do you wish to be in future?
-a make up artist

2 people I going to tag:
-joey
-shermene
Belly at 1:10 AM

1. The person who asked me to do.
- Damien

2. Your relationship with him/her.
- Friends

3. Your first impression on him/her.
- erm. not sure

4. Your most memorable moment with him/her.
- During secondary skol

5. The most memorable thing you said to him/her.
-

6. If him/her becomes your lover?
- is impossible

7. If him/her becomes your lover, what would you like him/her to improve on?
- impossible

8. If him/her becomes your enemy, what will you do?
- we wont become enemy.

9. If him/her becomes your enemy, what will be the reason?
-dunno

10. The most desired thing you want to do for him/her now is?
- not sure

11. Your overall impression on him/her.
- kind, easy goin ppl

12. The characteristic you love most about yourself.
- dunno. haha
13. The characteristic you hate most about yourself.
- attitude&sturborn

14. The most ideal person you want to be is?
- to find the right lover=)

15. For people that care and like you, say something to them.
- Thanks for everything u guys have did for me.

16. Pass this quiz to 10 people who you want to know how they feel about you.
1) jian feng
2) joey
3) shermene
4) beatrice
5) cai leng
6) yan ping
7) pui man
8) steph jie
9) wan xin
10) jasline

17. Who is 6 having a relationship with?
-Nobody. Single

18. Is 9 a male or female?
- Female

19. If 7 and 10 were together, would it be a good thing?
- No. cause they are female. They cant be lesbian too:)

20. What is 2 studying at the moment?
-secondary skol

21. When was the last time you had a chat with 3?
-Fridays nite on phone

22. What kind of music does 8 like not sure?
- I not ver sure.

23. Does 1 have any siblings?
- yes

24. Will you woo 3?
- nope. she is my cousin!

25. How about 7?
- impossible. is a female

26. Is 4 single?
- Yes

27. What's the surname of 5?
- Lee

28. What's the hobby of 5?
- goin out/hanging out

29. Do 5 and 9 get along well?
- they doen't noe each other.

30. Where is 2 studying at?
- compassalve view secondary skol. i think so

31. Say something casual about your eyes
- i have a perfect eye sight.

32. Have you tried developing feelings for 5?
- nope. impossibel too. Is a female

33. What colour does 4 like?
-not sure.

34. Are 5 and 1 good friends?
-nope. they dunno each other

35. Does 7 like 2?
- no. they dunno.

36. How did you get to know 2?
-through sin tua

37. Does 1 have any pets?
-nope.

38. Is 7 the sexiest person in the world?
-eh. dunno

39. How is 4 related to you?
-My ITE frenz

40. Describe 4.
- caring
Belly at 12:26 AM

27june2009
Have not been slpin well at chalet.. But have lots of fun with them.. Actually planned to wild wild wet but everything were cancelled due to tat bad wheather.. Then went food court to eat. Then headed to ehub and shop.. Actually they wanna watch transformer but i and ming don wan. Cause i don watch tat from the beginnin somemore no intersted in tat movie also. Then they also don wan to watch le.. Then went to arcade.. We played basketball.. Paiseh man.. I and bao hui can only go till level 2. Oop.! But okays la. Cause have not been playin for long. Then after playin headed back to chalet and rest awhile as everyone were lookin sleepy. Then woke up 5pm bathe and started to have our bbq. But thanks to the guy who keep bbq for us to eat.. Haha. Thanks thanks.. After bbq it was quite late le i was plannin to go home with fang and mummy the . Then da jie keep callin me don go home then i jiiu stay. Then aloy ask us to go along with them . Aloy ride my mummy and jie home. Then i,ming and da jie sit at gimi car with aloy frenz.. Then headed to my house first then to hougang cause aloy also send bao hui home cause tml she still have work then to woodlands.. Total went to 3areas.. After tat they decided to go geylang to eat beadcurd. So we went there and eat.. Wow.. Look like nite i have lots of fun..

28june2009
Woke up quite number of time.. Then finally woke up at 8.45am to bathe as we are goin to check out soon.. Then prepared do hao everything jiiu headed out le.. Then aloy send us home again. Before headed home went to paris ris coffee shop to eat duck rice then went home.. Reached home do hao thing then slp.. Finally have my lovely bed.. Then have a good rest. Wake up ard 4plus watched tv till 6.30pm then went back to slp till 7plus goin 8pm..will upload more when i get tat photo from them. Nite..
Belly at 8:28 AM

26june 2009

Firstly i would wann to to say this days is a special days. It was min min,joey birthday. Ah ma 100days and sis and her bf anniversary. So sweet for my sister. Cause is hard and difficult to last a relationship tat long. Both have to give in to make the relationship lasting. They did wat a couple have. Hope i also have a relationship tat can last long as them. Hahahaha. Wait till i find my mr right first. Happy 18th birthday to min. Don stress up yrself much wor. Just take it easy kayss. Have enough rest don study till so late. Hope you will get flyin colour in yrs A level. Lastly sheng ri kuai le. May u stay pretty alway:D
Happy 19birthday to you joey. Although i didnt wish u in sms cause i don think is wat la. But at least past few days i did wish u happy advance birthday le. So is the same. Hope u did enjoy yrs birthday yea! May everythin succeed in yrs life. Stay happy alway. Lastly sheng ri kuai le to u. Anyway think before doin anything too..
*time realli past fast ahma already 100days le.. Kind of miss her.. Hope everything would be fine for her.. I know tat no matter where we go you will alway be there for us and support us all the way..
Then here again wish sis and ming happy anniversary! Ming must hao hao treat my sister hoh.. I know u will the.. Haha.:D
At nite aloy came over to my house downstair to fetch me then went to bedok and bao hui they all haven eat.. Then ate everything headed to coast sand chalet to put our thing then wait for my sister to call.. Then we were like keep rushing sis as some of them like so called wann slp cause nothing to do.. Then sister reached home called me then aloy and us to and fetch her then headed to geylang to eat durian.. Yummy. Again my favourite.. Haha.. Then after eatin went to eat din sum.. U all may think we are hungry but got alot ppl shared together okays. Haha. Then after tat jiiu went back to chalet bathe hao jiiu slp le..
Belly at 8:08 PM

Wat type of attitude are u showing me yesterdays? Dun keep me only la. Why not say yrself muztwell then keep sayin thing abt me! Ask her for patch la. Dun everything like u with her also me. Since u say if she willing then ask her la. I hope she will give u tat last chance again lor. All The best to u and her! Do lastlong wif her if u got tat chance again and cherish her. Watever in the past i did i'm sorry for all tat. Maybe to u u may say sorry can cure wat but .. All i can say are this. hmmmm. Finally to mi now everything are over le. Thanks ppl for makin mi to forget the past and not to think much:) I'm glad tat my life now have no stress anymore. No worries ppl i wont turn back again. Once i have let go is diffcult to be back again!~ So Hope ppl who are my past dun contact me this moments. Thanks.:)


*May u be happy with her! Stay her accompany always yea.
Belly at 1:29 AM

23 June 2009
Nowdays have been stayin at hme. And yes mummy cook our favourite dishes. It was spaghetti. I cans say it was delicious and yummmy. I learned abit from mum now. Next time can cooked and eat le.. hahha=) Helped her out with cutting of onions,prawns,hotdogs and many more. And noe wat my mummy told me, she say she go buys more onions and called mi to cut till tat small like how i cut for tat spaghetti so tat next time she wan cook soup juz pour abit jiu will do le.Then i say anything lor. Arbo stayed at hme also nothing to do.


24june 2009
Wake up at ard 11plus to do my stuffs and watch DVD till 2 pllus went to bathe and prepared myself as my mummy suddenly wanna go IKEA&Giant. So peii her go. Cause she wanna changed the coupons to a knife at giant. Then reached there shop ard then ate susauge bread and curry puff delicious man!~ After tat jiu headed hme. Nowdays i think my appetite are comin back again. Keep eatin andd eatin non stop. GOSH!~ Think i gonna grow fatter and fatter soon.
Belly at 1:14 AM

I'm realli sorry to you. But we are realli impossible.Not i dun wanna give u tat chance is between us we can only be so called a good fren but not couple/GF,BF. Understand? I hope u dun keep tellin me to give u a cahnce cause the moment u tell mi tat is equally to the things i always tell u. So no use the. Not u dun hits the expectation i wan but juz no feeling towards u. Somemore not in the mood/feeling in relationship. Is jus sick and tired of havin tat. All thanks to tat guys who give me no faith in guys. Like i say past jiiu let it the past. But juz one thing why thing have to happened to me? Why he have to treat me this ways doin all this he is happy? Ym i noe u are tryin yr best to call me not to think nor say anythin abt him but i juz cant why? WHY?? I juz think nowdays my luck are low. Things are all goin wrong. Wat have happened? The moment i nid u whr are u? haiis. Give mi time i'm sure i can do it. On the ways 4getting all the past.Hope the moment i forget everything it wont/nvr ever let me fall back. Cause all the past are hurt. Ai ren shi tong ku the. Now wat i wan is to study hards and not think so much. Relax.!


*Belle u will overcome everything the. No more sadness. Juz take this was a dream/thinking. No more thinkin of him. It juz stop here. Hmmm.It would be a past soon.
Belly at 7:17 AM

I'm just sick and tired of doing the same thing. Why am i so soft hearted.? Why why? Why sometime treated ppl well ppl don treasure wait till i'm realli give up on the thing i alway do then u all started to regret by tat time i think is realli too late la. Haiis! Went to ah ma house early in the morning to pray ah ma cause she have pass away for 100days le. This was the time we gather again. Have a nice talk to shan my lovely cousin. She were so called shock when i told her something. But i told her tat just a past for me le. Haha. Then say then good lorh. Don think so much. Thanks thanks ppl who concern for me when i'm down ya. Then my aunty ordered buffet to pray my ah ma. Wa. The buffet food was delicious. Nice. Haha. After finishin doin all the thing at ah ma house headed to bugis with my mummy and 2sister. Bought a shirt while sis bought quite a num of thing.poor mummy have to pay for the thing i bought. Then after shoppin ard is was nite time headed to bugis junction b1 to eat pasta. Yeah. My sis they all ate pasta while i ate baked rice. Nice and yummy.. My favourite. Am i skinny? Why like go everywhr ppl keep askin me u didnt eat arh? Why so thin? My answer to them was like i eat alot. But just tat no matter how i eat the size are just like this . Maybe now still young la. After not long maybe will get fatter who know right? Hope bao maintain the size. Don get any fatter. But the problem is like why i keep eatin i'm still not fat? I scared maybe my body inside have lots of fats just tat i dunno. Oh . Gosh. I think by tat time i'm goin to faint. Hmmm.. Hope everything go smooth for me. Haha. Kayss larh. Gonna slp le. Tired. Nite nite.

*hope yew guy will treasure how i treat u . Realli. Don make me give up everything and just throw everything all over there. Hope watever i say bear it inside yrs mind. Sometime i think le my tears was like just rollin down just like this. I don wish to. Hope u guys will understand how my feelin. I know no matter wat i say now is just wat i'm sayin but not showin. But no matter wat i have told the both of u in the end i still just let go of tat and continue doin the same thing back. But watever i say i still truly love u both . Cause no matter wat u both are part of my life. Here sayin sorry to mummy for just now the attitude. I know i'm rude sometime. But i cant control. Sorry sorry mummy. Hmmm.. I love you my family..
Belly at 8:59 AM

Is realli tired. Sometime i'm wondering why am i so soft hearted . Why? Treat ppl well yet some don appreciate. Haiis!
Belly at 8:55 AM

today wake up damn early. Have not been slpin well yesterday. Then woke up bathe and do hao everything jiiu peii my sis to hougang to wash her teeth.. Then after tat headed to my goddad so called my uncle house to slp cause we were tired somemore we are meetin my sister ard 2pm at tamp inter. By the time my sis finish doin her teeth it was just 10am so we caii decided to go up to my uncle house and rest. At least still managed to slp abit well. Then went to tamp waited for sister awhile then went to so called food court to eat chicken rice. Then after tat went to shop ard then went to T1 to see the ppl how to do scrapbooks . Learn abit. Nice nice. After tat went to ya kun to eat egg and drinks ice milo. Then chatted awhile went to the bus stop to meet yun. After tat jiiu take 65 to safra to eat sakura for father days. Happy father day to daddy in advanced. I love you daddy. A great daddy who show care and concern for the family. A person who stand a important role in me and the family. Have joy being with my family. Hmmm.. After tat headed home. We headed home by walkin cause our stomach was full. Then yun came over to our house to stay. Have to rest early now. Cause tml have to wake up early cause tml goin to pray for ah ma advanced 100days. Time realli past fast. Sometime just don believe ah ma have leave us but no choice just to take the reality . Haiis!
*would u be missing us? Hope thing go soon for u ah ma. We miss you and do love u too..
Belly at 8:39 AM

life is as usual. Have my same routine everydays. Yeah. Yummmy. Mum bought durian for us. I ate quite alot. But still okays larh. Wont realli get fat cause didnt ate for long le. After eaten went down to jog with my 2sister and mummy. First time at nite go jogging. Cause as u guys know me i don like runnin the. But to maintain my size untill i'm old no choice have to run. Then sis told be let every weeks jog twice a days. Oh . I were like xiian. Have to run twice a weeks. But will be use to it soon also. Hmmm.. Oh . Gosh. I keep tellin my sister i wan work and they keep tellin me don alway use mouth to say but didnt prove. Not i nvr prove lorh. Is people also don wanna hired like us if we are workin for just 2weeks. I just wanna work 2weeks niia. Cause HFC exam still haven finish. Slol reopen jiiu start le. Gonna study liao. No my sister wanna keep naggin me for not studyin. Cause i'm somehow a girl who like to do thing in the last minutes tat why they alway say me. Use to it le. But should take their adviced. Cause waveva they say they are all good for me. No harm. Hmmm..kayss larh. I gonna go slp le. Tml have to wake up early. Nite nite reader.

*lisabelle is brave again. Not gonna let thing interrupt my life. Thanks u for treatin me the way and teaches me a lesson.
Belly at 7:15 AM

today as usual. Woke up in the afternoon ard 2plus. This were the 1st time i sleep till so good.. Then do hao everything eat rice as mum have cook.. After tat bathe hao and get changed then went to tp bus stop to meet my sister. Cause goin goin to take something from her friend at AiA. After tat headed to tampines mall to buys some stuff. Then went to food court to eat duck rice. Then ming come over to find us. After tat headed to century square to book ticket as we are watchin ghost of girlfriend. Quite touchin. After tat jiiu headed home. Ah ma 100days comin le. Kindly miss ah ma veri much.
Belly at 8:18 AM

today as usual. Woke up in the afternoon ard 2plus. This were the 1st time i sleep till so good.. Then do hao everything eat rice as mum have cook.. After tat bathe hao and get changed then went to tp bus stop to meet my sister. Cause goin goin to take something from her friend at AiA. After tat headed to tampines mall to buys some stuff. Then went to food court to eat duck rice. Then ming come over to find us. After tat headed to century square to book ticket as we are watchin ghost of girlfriend. Quite touchin. After tat jiiu headed home. Ah ma 100days comin le. Kindly miss ah ma veri much.
Belly at 8:18 AM

Am i being stupid?? Haiis! Why am i doin thing which are wrong but not right ? Why must he treat me this way . I realli dunno why man. Izzit wan me to forget him then he will be happy? If like this he would be happy i will do wat he wan. I will try all best to do tat. Just let know tat. I will try to fulfill him the. As long as he is happy. Realli. I'm realli veri sorry to ym. Realli. I realli cant give u a chance. We are realli impossible. Although i cant be with him i also wont be with u. Cause we just can be a veri good frenz niia. Sorry wor. Don because of me spoil yrs days kayss. Stay happy. I wish to see u guys happy. I know between us we no longer have chance but just take it as i'm dreaming ma. I don wish thing will end up to me this way but hai hao le . Hurt have been over there le. Do u know u realli hurt me this time? Although i'm not a good girlfriend in the past but why just one last chance u also don wanna give me and let me show u . But is okays larh. I know is all my dream niia . Forget it. Ym thanks for all you have done for me. I realli treasure the friendship we have. Thanks for helpin him say lots of thing when i'm down because tryin to make me happy. But i know me and him are no longer possible. So don worry. I will be happy. I will try all way not to think so much. I will make my life happy. *labels:why lovin a person is hard? Why? Why am i like this? Lovin him so deep yet we are impossible. Am i doin wrong? I did something wrong? Tell me pls. He is a guy who i love deeply in my life but yet. Haiis! Everything should be an end now le bah. Thanks for treatin me this way man. I nvr thought u are such a guy who do tat to me. Nvm. Now finally i can see dao how u treat me like a shit. Thanks man. Thanks for all tat.
Belly at 5:39 AM

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO U~!


MAy all yr wishes come true. Do study hard wor.Sheng ri kuai le. Hope u like the things we Bought for u worx.
Belly at 10:02 AM

Have a nice days gathering with my frenz. Took quite lots of photo.Ms Eng bought a birthdays cakes from emi shop for the june baby. The june baby were crystal,jolene,beatrice and gerline. HAppy birthday to all the june babyy. After tat headed to kerina hse to bathe and get changed and headed to arena to meet march. After buyin the tickets have to Q up for our turn to get in. When i step into the place there were lots of ppl crowd. Then after tat beatrice bring us to the middle of the stage to dance. Have lots of fun wif them i can say. After arena mi,crystal,beatrice, kerina, march and march frenz went to dunno wat pub or club as they wanna drink. They ordered 2 bottles of martell. I drink 2 cups of tat niia. Hmmm. Then can see some of march fren was high. Then after tat it was 4plus 5am then we took cab back to kerina hse and sleep. While in the cab march were not feeling well and luckily uncle did prepared plastic bags in the car. Then i helped her with the plastic bags. Then when we reached kerina hse downstair she roll off from the cab. Scared us lor. Cause she wan to vomit but cant vomit out.Poor girl.Then i helped her up to kerina hse. after helpin her to do all the things liao then we slept. she say some words tat let me think dao of him . Why? wat happened to me man? Feel like Cryin out loud but is this worth it? I realli dunno.. Haiis. After tat didnt think much jiiu slept le.
Belly at 10:28 PM

went to IT fair with my family,cousin,jing yong and aloy. sister and jing yong bought a hardisk . And jie jie bought the pink colour the. So nice and sweet. After shoppin they decided to watch movie so we go ordered our tickets. We watch drag me to hell. Damn nice and scary i can say but most importantly is the sound effect tat let us scared the. While watchin sms yu ming to help me ask him abt the feelin and finally i got my answer le. My answer was NO! At first was abit sad but after awhile jiiu hai hao le. Hmmm..because have prepared myself for the worst le. And know tat answer is no but just to double confrim it.anyway, i didnt blame him for not givin me chance cause i don wann a force relationship . So speakin out the truth is beta. Thanks for givin me tat answer yesterday .it teaches me a lesson too. Don't ever put too much feelin into a guys. Let a guy love u more then u love him. But anyway have to thanks yu ming for all the help . Whenever i'm down u will alway be there to cheer me up . Thanks my dear friend. Although we are not meant to be together but u will alway be a good bestie frenz and a good listening ear. Don't worry from now on i wont wrote anything regardin my feelin toward him here le. All i wan is to forget and let him off le. Continue tat i'm just hurtin myself. May he find dao his miss right and happiness soon. Sincerly wish u all the best from my bottom of my heart . Take care.

*It have been gone just like this . But nvm larh. At least i got my answer and spoke out the truth to me then lying me. Thanks. Sad is just a period of time. I will try my veri best. I can make it. Jia you lisabelle. U can make it the. Hmmm .. Lastly sorry to those who have treated me well yet i don treasure and cherish. Promise my frenz i will try my best to forget. Don worry for me. I will be fine.
Belly at 10:43 PM

Am i not a good girlfriend for the both of you? Indeed i didnt been a good girlfriend like other did. But i did care,concern and loves you.But why u say till i didnt put in any effort? Haiis! Am i realli tat bad in the past? Did i changed to another person? I dunno wat is in yrs mind.. If no feelin tell me dun keep sayin dunno. Have been completely hurt yesterday. Know wat joey told me he say he didnt contact u because he don have feelin for u. From tat time on, my heart crack. Something just go through like tat.realli. It realli hurt me. I know they are tryin to speak up the truth also. So from tat day she told me tat we are finished. I don have much hope between us. And tat can tell me we are completely impossible le. Pls think and spare a thought on me larh. Have feelin or don have just tell me.i realli need tat answer. Like i say hurtin once is enough twice i think i cant take it. But no matter wat decision u choose i will respect it. Hmmm.. Like u say u wan nature to take place. Hao bah. I will respect and fulfil wat u wan then. Take care bah.
*lisabelle stay happy yea. Don't because of this make yrs days miserable and sad. Cheer up ya. You still have lots of ppl to care for u. Winks~smile smile.
Belly at 9:43 PM

Am i not a good girlfriend for the both of you? Indeed i didnt been a good girlfriend like other did. But i did care,concern and loves you.But why u say till i didnt put in any effort? Haiis! Am i realli tat bad in the past? Did i changed to another person? I dunno wat is in yrs mind.. If no feelin tell me dun keep sayin dunno. Have been completely hurt yesterday. Know wat joey told me he say he didnt contact u because he don have feelin for u. From tat time on, my heart crack. Something just go through like tat.realli. It realli hurt me. I know they are tryin to speak up the truth also. So from tat day she told me tat we are finished. I don have much hope between us. And tat can tell me we are completely impossible le. Pls think and spare a thought on me larh. Have feelin or don have just tell me.i realli need tat answer. Like i say hurtin once is enough twice i think i cant take it. But no matter wat decision u choose i will respect it. Hmmm.. Like u say u wan nature to take place. Hao bah. I will respect and fulfil wat u wan then. Take care bah.
*lisabelle stay happy yea. Don't because of this make yrs days miserable and sad. Cheer up ya. You still have lots of ppl to care for u. Winks~smile smile.
Belly at 9:43 PM

Today i realli got a sense tat this time round we are realli impossible le.. How? I hope i can 4get him but each time i talk abt him i cant forget him but in the end miss him more. xiian. By sayin is easy but by doing is difficult. i need ppl to spare me yr hands. Are u willng? Nvm la. Hope time will prove then. Take time bah. There still long distance for mi to go. Like i told myself qiang qiu the relationship wont have happiness. Who can help me to 4get him i think no one can help me out cAUse mi myself cant help to 4 het him so other. I'm willing to do anythings juz for my loves one. But are u willing? Is there still chance btw us? I need an ansswer! If there no chance pls tell mi i realli need time then. All i wan is a loves from u is tat hard? If u told me u have feeling for other then i will let go then. I wont wat liao. hmmm. KAyss la. Shall end here.Hope tml would be a happy days for me.

Girl: Dun think so much.The more u think the more stress u havin. Juz let it be then. Kayss! stay happy and cheer up:)

* ILOVEYOU. Suddenly miss my ahma alot.Today let me think of her because there were a group of elderly ppl from elderly home came over to do medicure and hand massage. While some go for facial. Have a great time with some auntie and uncle. hmmmm. 2 more weeks to ahma 100days. Passed aways for 3 months soon. Xiian. Take care ahma. With loves and care=)

Belle. will updated anything tml again. nite nites ppls.
Belly at 8:00 AM

Don't u think we are impossible? Ask yrself tat. Not i don wan to explain or say abt my feelin. Cause realli impossible. I dunno wat make me keep sayin we are impossible. Sorry ppl who i don treasure and cherish. I don wan to bluff my own feelin. If i don have feelin wat the point being together. I wan a relationship which both have feelin for each other but not one have feelin another don have. But is okays larh. Just take tat i'm dreamin too much. If have no matter wat one days u will be mine. If not i also dun wan force. My frenz did told me to say abt my feelin. But i'm just shy and scared . I dunno why . Are we realli impossible? Or am i just tryin to avoid? Am a girl who is easily jealous ? There still a chance between us ? No matter wat yr decision is i will respect also . If u happy then everything would be fine then. And thanks ppl who are tryin to help out but i don wan. I don need help from u all. If yrs no matter wat also yrs. It wont be snatch also. I also dunno why i so ...... Aiya. Nvm larh. Dunno wat to say over here.. Sorry for hurtin u deep. Not i don wish to give u chance but i just cant bluff my own feelin. Realli. Sorry for all tat. Treated u tat bad the past.. There still beta girl outside then me. Hmmm..
Belly at 7:13 AM

i shouldnt have tell anyone abt my feelin. Realli. I dunno how to look at u man. I know we are impossible. He shouldnt have told u tat. But maybe he is helpin me also but i don wann him to help me in this way. Got feelin sure one day will be together the. I also don need any force or help. Thanks if u wann to help . But i don need tat. I will give up on him realli this time round . I hope i can managed to forget him. Cause this time i have a sense we wont be together again. So is okay. See dao him happy i also will be happy. Like i say let ppl like/love is happy beta then loving ppl. It hurt alot. I don wann to hurt myself again. It crack once no more 2nd time. And i have know tat answer le. Thanks for tat answer. It make me liao jie le. So from now on i hope u will be out from my mind. I don wish to either miss or love u.. Is realli hard realli. Maybe this time is a crash or wat. Maybe u may think i'm flirt awhile like this awhile like tat . But the fact is i'm not flirtin. Hmmm.. I understand how u feel also. Nvm. Thanks for tellin him tat answer and let me know tat . I just can say love are blind. When then will my mr right will appear? Happiness are all just in my hands. Treasure and cherish tat u have now .
Belly at 7:26 AM

Anyways, Hui yi do rest in peace. Although we are not tat close but we did talk to each other before.. Hope angel will protect u all the ways.
Belly at 7:53 AM

6june2009
Went to john little sale at expo wif sister they all.. Bought lots of tibits.And there were lots of cheap cheap thing. Bought renoma underwear for daddy and didi.. Didnt managed to buy anthing for myself but tibits. Then after shoppin headed to mrt to bedok to find mummy.. Then went hme ard 11plus.
















7june2009

Went to town wif my family& relative. Before goin to town to meet them i peii my jie jie to go expo to changed things 1st then we headed to soup resturants to eat. But anyways thanks to kai ye for the treat.. Then shop ard.. Gucci got sale man:)hmmm.. Then kai ye bought a LV wallet.. Didnt bought much things. Juz bought a eye lineder and a make up remover..Xiian.. Then for dinnner we eat pasta again.. Nowdays i have been eatin pasta all the ways.. But luckily i eaten baked rice not pasta again.. I juz felt something, nowdays my appetite becomin lesser and lesser.. HOW? I'm underweight yet my appetite are less. I cant have this man. After tat jiu headed hme.
Belly at 6:25 AM